Before The Bloom
The Season of Letting Go & Moving Forward
March always feels like a season in between. Not quite winter, not fully spring. The days stretch longer, but the air still carries a chill. Some trees remain bare, while others begin to bud.
There’s something about this time of year that mirrors the exact feeling of standing at the edge of change, that moment when you’re ready for something new, yet hesitant to fully step into it.
And honestly? That’s exactly how I felt for the past five years.
For two decades, I held onto my NYC apartment—a space that had been mine for twenty years, filled with memories, independence, and a sense of home that had shaped so much of who I was. But something in me had been whispering for a while: It’s time to move on.
Yet I didn’t. I kept debating, hanging onto it for years, wrapped in a mindset that told me I might never find anything as good again.
Why Do We Hold On?
Scarcity had me in a grip.
I kept thinking:
What if I never find another place in a great area for a great price?
What if I regret letting it go?
What if this is the best I’ll ever have?
We do this all the time, don’t we? We grip onto things, not because they still serve us, but because we’re afraid of what happens if we let go.
We hold onto:
Jobs that drain us because we aren’t sure if a better one exists.
Relationships that no longer fit because we’ve invested so much time.
Old habits and routines that no longer align, simply because they’re familiar.
The problem is, when we stay in the in-between for too long, we block what’s meant to come next.
And I had been standing in that limbo for years. Holding on. Questioning. Debating. Until I finally made the choice to release it.
The Moment I Chose to Let Go
And then, the moment I actually let go? Everything shifted.
Within two days, this happened:
A new coaching contract job appeared.
I was quoted in a major article.
And, most unexpectedly, I felt an emotional weight lift that I didn’t even realize I had been carrying.
I don’t think that was a coincidence.
There’s something about making space, about closing a door fully instead of hovering in the doorway, that allows life to move.
And here’s the thing: I’m not saying goodbye to NYC forever. I can still visit, stay in different places, and experience the city in new ways. But for the first time in a long time, I’m not forcing something to fit simply because I was afraid of the unknown.
I think of it like a garden. You can’t plant something new if the soil is still tangled with last season’s roots. You have to clear the space before new growth can even begin.
Spring Doesn’t Rush, And Neither Should We
I used to think letting go was something that had to be forced, like if I didn’t grip so tightly, everything would just fall apart. But I’ve started to see it differently.
Nature doesn’t rush into change.
Trees don’t rip the leaves off their branches when the season shifts.
Flowers don’t fight to bloom before they’re ready.
And the air doesn’t suddenly wake up one day and decide, Okay, today is spring!
Instead, it happens gradually. Slowly. Naturally.
And that’s the part we often miss.
Letting go isn’t about wiping the slate clean overnight or pretending the past didn’t matter. It’s about trusting that the next chapter is already unfolding, even if you can’t see the full picture yet.
“Some things will come to an end, but this is not the same as an ending. It is a space, a clearing, an invitation to begin again.”
- Morgan Harper Nichols
What Are You Holding Onto?
I know how easy it is to stay in the in-between. To keep debating. To let the what ifs hold you hostage.
But here’s the truth: The longer you stay where you no longer belong, the less space you create for what’s meant to come next.
So, as the season shifts and spring begins to unfold, I invite you to ask yourself:
What’s one thing you’re ready to release?
Because we don’t have to force growth.
We just have to trust that when we create space, life will bloom in ways we never expected.
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